Just want to point out that I have lost 2.3 pounds since Monday.

And this isn’t a “New Year’s Resolution” because those are stupid, and people never follow through with them.

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Mabel needs a new head gasket, tires rotated, new CV axels (at least in the front), and possibly a new radiator.. which means, she’s can’t be driven and she’s our only car.. which means, mom might lose her job because she has no way there except for cabs and cabs get expensive fast. Also, I could lose my nannying job because “having a reliable car is part of the job description” but Ainsley loves me, so idk if they’d fire me because my car is broken down for a few days.

I’m hopefully getting all of this fixed in the next few days. Mom’s BP money came in, finally..

And I have surgery in 2 Mondays.. which means, I’m only babysitting 2 more weekends before I take a week (or two!) off for recovery which means money will get tight in a quickness.. but I can’t go back and nanny all weekend with a face that is all bruised and stitched up.. expecting a 3 year old to not be terrified of me.

ALSO, I wanted to lose weight before surgery but I’m not really thinking my weight is in my face. I don’t have a fat face, just a slightly round mid-section and thighs.

It’s a start!

And the woman I nanny for said that I look like I’ve lost weight.

“small steps lead to big journeys.”

Then I’m doing pilates, and possibly going for a walk.

I’ve been steadily taking my vitamins all week, and even restarted on OxyElite on monday. But this morning was super busy right away, and I forgot to take my vitamins and oxyelite before I ate, and now I feel crappy.

And I can’t take the oxyelite now because I’ve eaten.

Oh well, theres always tomorrow.

I really like the pilates but it gets to be too many moves at once and I get confused, frustrated, which causes me to stop. It’s also a lot of squat movements, and squats tear my knees up. My tendonitis flares up and hurts the next day to no end.

And yoga, I didn’t like it. I didn’t get anything from it which probably means that I’m doing it wrong. But either way, I’m not a huge fan.

I’m also extremely full of excuses. And I need to stop. I make myself sick typing away at all of my excuses.

Mostly as a way of catching up on my imaginary readers that care. Because I doubt anyone but a few people actually read it, and even then, its probably just when they stumble upon the posts/blog.

Anyway.

I did pilates yesterday, and only stopped because I was getting frustrated at how fast the video flows from movement to movement. But I’ll get it. & I will get skinny and happy :)

I also went to the ER last night to see what the hell is going on with my throat, head, neck, and (unrelated to the first three) my boobs. They figured out that I have an upper respiratory infection, as well as, a small case of strep throat. My head and neck are apparently related to a tension and sinus problem. And the nurse told me that if I drink a lot of caffeine, then that may be why my boobs hurt.. but I call bullshit because I have always drank soda and I haven’t started drinking more/less, so why the hell do my boobs feel like two bag of marbles crashing together everytime I move?

I also cleaned the house yesterday, and caught up on school work. I have a 78% in this class right now because I completely bombed 2/5 quizzes that were 10% of my grade a piece. So, fml.

I also played a lot of Sims Social on facebook, trying to get my dragon! I’m finally on the last leg of building the tower! :)

Because seeing it all over the house (and especially on the fridge) will get me to stop eating so much bread and sweets and soda.

However, I did buy the 10 calorie per can dr. pepper.

/babysteps

SO, back to working out like I’m trying to kill myself to get skinny. C:

Bring on the soreness and the complaining.